This winter has been terrible. I have never been so sedentary for so long a stretch. Yesterday the Fox 4 weatherman said that in the average January and February, we have twenty-four days when the temperature gets above fifty; this year, we've had only two such days.
Those brief, warmer spells are the times Cliff and I normally bundle up and go for a motorcycle ride. It's those times that get us through the winters and keep our spirits up. The motorcycle hasn't been out of the garage in months. In fact, I believe late November was the last time we rode.
I certainly hope this year isn't setting some sort of trend for the upcoming winters.
So, we surf the Internet. Cliff plans the work he'll do on his Oliver tractor, I plan my next garden. We discuss possible vacation plans, and weekend trips we hope to take this summer.
Regarding yesterday's entry about Blue: I finally understand what people mean when they talk about "closure". In composing that entry, I realized that I hadn't allowed myself to grieve properly. Sharing my thoughts with the world brought my feelings to the surface, feelings I was keeping buried. Indeed, it gave me closure, as painful as it was. I thank you for all your kind words.
We should be about 10-20 degrees warmer here this time of year. We would rarely get up to 50 degrees but high 30's anyway. It's been a very cold and hard winter and I'm so ready for it to end. One thing I have noticed is that it is earlier now when the sun rises.That is a sign of hope for warmer days ahead.
ReplyDeleteThis winter sort of makes us wonder about the case for "global warming"! I can't wait until Spring comes around!!!
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean about closure...until I wrote down the actual facts about the day Danny died, I had been hurting so bad inside...almost like a pressure building up within my heart and soul...but after doing so, it was like a dam bursting, and it let me feel just a little easier within myself. I love you my friend.
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Bless your heart! I'm hoping the weather will break soon for you so you & CLiff can take a ride.
ReplyDeleteDONNA, IT IS PROBABLY NATURAL TO HAVE 'DOWN' FEELINGS ONCE IN A WHILE.
ReplyDeleteSPRING WILL COME AND THE TUFF WINTER WILL BE A MEMORY. BIRDS WILL BE SINGING, HAPPY FOR HAVING THE NEST WITH BABY BIRDS.
SIP THE COFFEE AND BE HAPPY FOR THAT WHICH WE HAVE. sam
You will be grieving for a while, I know but the pain will not be a sharp and the happy memories will be sweet. God knows you and your heart and he will comfort. He knows we love our animals.
ReplyDeleteThe weather...omgosh...it has been the coldest winter. I have enjoyed the snow though and glad it was cold enough for that. But, like you, I am ready for some warmth. Hopefully soon. Hang in there. I find the sunny days sure help the spirits and the cloudy days are making me sulk and wither. lol
Hope you are smiling today and find some things to laugh at. I'll pray that for you b/c it sounds like it has been rough and I can't imagine what you have endured over losing Blue.
I remembered you in my prayers last night. I am glad that telling about it helped. It has been colder here than normal this winter. Oh, those heat bills are soaring. I hope you and Cliff soon get to ride that cycle, you both will enjoy getting out. Especially you who has had to stay in so much. Helen
ReplyDeleteI always wondered what use grief is - it doesn't bring them back, it makes any wrong we've felt we've done so much sharper. But after you're done crying, you can see the sun again, it shines a little bit at a time at first and then brighter as time goes on. The pain passes, you forgive yourself or realize - there was nothing to forgive. And then the real memories come forth and stay with you always - I am so sorry for your loss Donna.
ReplyDeleteI hope the weather turns warmer so that you and Cliff can get out on the motorcycle as I know you both enjoy it so much. It will help you heal.
ReplyDeleteMy Mama says it is in fact a trend of winters to come. Makes me shiver thinking about it. If that is the case, I am seriously going to consider my animals intake, and just have show chickens. I can't take this winter blast we have had for months now. The bigger animals are not so bad on me, but the chickens, well, we will see. Sometimes talking about Spring and plans we have really does help us to get through the winter. I guess I have been so busy hatching chicks all winter it has helped me. I was telling Ian it sure did seem like the actual day to day cold has been in long stretches. No warm days like you were talking usually happens. I know that global warming is about climate change in general and does not mean the whole earth is warming. It in fact makes the weather patterns do just what its doing right now, warmer than usual in some spots of the world, and colder than usual in the others. I am glad you talked about Blues passing. It helps, as you know. He was loved and had a really good life with you, so don't get too down. Love, Kelly
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