Once upon a time, it bothered me to wake up in the night and be unable to go back to sleep. The minutes seemed like hours. There always seemed to be something to be worrying about as I lay there awake and bored, and that seemed to compound the problem.
I still lie awake for major portions of every night, but worries don't bother me any more. Oh, last summer when the grandson was trying to get the old house remodeled, I'd wake up and get to worrying about one thing or another; but now I'm back to normal. There are things I could let bother me in the lives of those around me, but I've learned to leave everybody else's problems alone and let them deal with them; my worrying won't change things anyhow. These days if I find myself obsessing about something that's none of my business, I have learned to turn my mind in another direction. In my old age, my mind performs perfect, legal u-turns.
Funny thing is, time doesn't even seem to drag when I'm awake in the night, the way it used to. I've laid awake for a couple hours at a time, glanced at the clock occasionally, and not let the time bother me.
Another funny thing: No matter how little I sleep, by the time I've been up and around for a couple of hours, I don't feel any worse for the lack of sleep.
So I lay awake from 1:30 until 4 o'clock this morning, and it honestly didn't seem like more than half an hour. I fooled with the IPad for a while, but mostly I just lay there thinking how pleasant it is to lie in bed and listen to the rain coming down steadily. I often take a deep breath and think what a gift it is to be able to breath deeply: I have in-laws with asthma who can't get a truly deep breath, no matter how they try.
I often thank God that my knees don't hurt when I'm lying in bed, because I've heard lots of people say that's when their knees bother them a lot. I do know the feeling, because before I had the meniscus repairs several years ago, I couldn't straighten out my knees when I was lying down. It was awful!
Friday night and Saturday nights I slept for over eight hours, only getting up once each night for the bathroom. I wish I knew what caused the deep sleep, because I haven't slept so well in years! Last night, I was back to normal, which is OK. If that's the worst problem I ever have, I'm in good shape.
That child has certainly given us something to look forward to.
The grandson found out where the cows have been getting out at the back of the place and took a picture. A tree has fallen on the fence. This happens fairly often, as one would expect when the fence runs right through the woods.