The first time I heard the word "Asperger's" I was in the old AOL Christian chat room many years ago. A young mother, Lori, used the word; she thought perhaps one of her children might have the syndrome, I believe. Of course I googled it at the time and and learned that it is a mild form of autism. I really didn't give it any more thought.
Three years ago my daughter mentioned her favorite television show, "Parenthood", and I began watching the series. One of the main characters is Max, a boy diagnosed with autism, and I learned more about Asperger's syndrome by watching the show. By the way, everything I've read says that Max does a perfect portrayal of a child with autism.
Later on, an adult character, Hank, read a book about Asperger's and decided he might have it. I'm not sure if it was ever definitely settled on the show, but with Hank's portrayal, I began to wonder if perhaps I am afflicted to some small extent with this condition.
I realize online tests are never to be taken seriously. But this morning I took an online test to see what it would tell me about my chances of having Asperger's, and I fell into the "maybe" column.
Here are things that make me think I might be affected.
1. I have never made friends easily. As a child, I actually preferred playing alone with my imaginary friends to playing with a crowd of real children, most of whom didn't like my peculiar ways anyhow.
2. My husband is my only friend, and I'm fine with that, although I'm sure it's a burden on him.
3. I hate social situations.
4. I have to force myself to look people in the eye.
5. When I'm shopping, or in any public place, I avoid eye contact with everyone. That's why people often think I'm snooty... they see me, but I don't see them. They think I am ignoring them.
6. I often say inappropriate things to people, not intending to. I sometimes insult people without realizing it until Cliff brings it to my attention later.
The oldest grandson says I have no filters, and that my give-a-damn's busted.
Maybe I just have Asperger's.
OK, I'm seventy years old. I'm not going to go hunting for a diagnosis; I've made it this long without anybody telling me why I am like this. I've just assumed I was an introvert.
What do you think?
By the way, the test results said there is a 30% chance I have Asperger's, but that it's not likely.