Yep. I've somehow damaged it beyond repair. However, it seems I can still post entries, so as long as I can do that, I'm not leaving. This little spot on the Internet is where I store my memories and feelings, and I really need it, just for me.
Over the last few days I have come to realize that I no longer need a dog in my life. I'm tired of the hair in the house and the needy-ness. Once Iris is gone, I think I am done with dogs. In fact, if I could find someone who would treat Iris in the manner to which she is accustomed, they could have her, but I think that is highly unlikely. I've had one person say he would like to have her, but he was going to keep her outside, in a pen.
I don't THINK so.
Cliff and I ventured out to the city today. I had him make a stop at Kohl's because I wanted some pajamas that fit, and I figured they would be marked down. I was right, although fifteen bucks seems a little high for after Christmas. But I've been wearing those old extra-large pajamas for a year now, with them almost falling down when I walked, because, you know, nobody sees me in my pajamas except Cliff. But I am really tired of holding my pajama bottoms up when I walk. My new medium-sized ones are a great fit.
Athletic shoes were marked down, too, probably in anticipation of people making New Year's resolutions to start walking or jogging so they can lose weight. I've really wanted to try a pair of Asics, but unfortunately, Kohl's never has them in my (huge) size. So I bought my usual Nikes at a decent price.
I would love to brag and tell you that this morning I was four pounds lighter than I was four days ago. It is the truth, but tonight I ran smack-dab into a bag of caramel corn, so I'm not confident that things will look so good in the morning.
Just keeping it real, that's all.